Comedian and podcaster Theo Von has long been an open book about his personal battles, using humor as a lens to discuss everything from addiction to anxiety. However, recent events surrounding the taping of his Netflix comedy special at New York’s Beacon Theatre have amplified worries among fans and observers about his current mental state. On September 27, 2025, during what was described as a “choppy” and uneven performance, Von made a troubling remark: “I’m having a long month, I’m trying not to take my own life.” This comment, captured in viral clips, quickly sparked widespread concern across social media and news outlets, with many interpreting it as a cry for help amid ongoing struggles.
Von, known for his podcasts This Past Weekend and his raw, Southern-inflected storytelling, has never shied away from vulnerability. Over the years, he’s shared extensively about his history with substance abuse, including opioid addiction, which he referenced in older social media posts as a “famous historic battle.” His journey to sobriety has been a recurring theme, often framed with self-deprecating humor that endears him to listeners. Mental health challenges, including depression and anxiety, have also been part of his narrative, with Von advocating for therapy and openness in interviews. This transparency has built him a loyal fanbase, but it also means that when he appears off-kilter, as he did during the Beacon Theatre set, alarm bells ring loudly.
The special’s taping didn’t go as planned, with reports describing Von’s performance as disjointed and halting. In a follow-up episode of This Past Weekend released on October 2, 2025, Von addressed the rumors head-on, admitting it “wasn’t perfect” but downplaying the severity. He revealed that a few months prior, he had decided to wean himself off anti-depressants to access more raw emotion for the show, a choice he now reflects on with mixed feelings. “I’ll eat failure and keep trying,” he said, assuring fans that he is not currently a danger to himself and is actively seeking a new therapist to better manage his well-being. He emphasized a desire to “enjoy my life” and be of service to others, hitting his knees in prayer for guidance amid what he described as feeling “not good.”
Social media reactions have been a mix of empathy and speculation. Posts on X (formerly Twitter) highlight fans’ worries, with some suggesting a possible relapse or burnout from his demanding schedule. One user urged prayer and kindness, noting Von’s tendency to isolate and grapple with past decisions. Others criticized those laughing at the clip, calling it “despicable” given Von’s history of using comedy as an outlet for real pain. Even detractors expressed concern, underscoring how Von’s authenticity cuts through divides.
From a broader perspective, this episode highlights the double-edged sword of fame in comedy. Performers like Von thrive on mining personal trauma for laughs, but the pressure to deliver—especially for high-stakes specials—can exacerbate underlying issues. Stopping medication for artistic reasons, while perhaps well-intentioned, raises questions about balancing creativity with health. In my opinion, Von’s willingness to discuss these missteps publicly is commendable; it normalizes the non-linear nature of mental health recovery and encourages others to seek help without shame. However, it also serves as a reminder that even those who seem “fine” on stage might be fighting silent battles.
As of October 2, 2025, Von appears committed to turning things around, focusing on therapy and self-care. His advocacy for mental health, including past support for figures like Robert F. Kennedy Jr. in health-related roles, shows a deeper commitment to wellness beyond his own story. Fans continue to rally with messages of support, emphasizing that vulnerability isn’t weakness—it’s what makes Von relatable. If you’re struggling, resources like the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (988 in the US) are available. Here’s hoping Theo Von finds the peace and enjoyment he seeks; the world is better with his unique voice in it.
